Books

By Heather Lee Farrell

My story and poetry books began with a journey into the unknown…

Fall of 2014 began with ideas of how my vision might unfold, where exploration and travels would take me and how they would bring me home. I had ideas, creative intentions, work to do and adventures to create. My path would unfold; but life provided something entirely different.

I experienced a severe physical trauma in late 2014. It was predicted that I wouldn’t heal fully functional. I embarked on a timeline of healing and recovery, surgical procedures and therapeutic work predicted through 2018. 

Life manifested challenge and uncertainty. My path diverged from what I knew and is yet unforged. I faced daily challenges of doing the work to heal. I struggled with isolation, discomfort and sustaining intense focus needed to heal optimally.  

This long-term recovery stripped my life bare. Only the essentials mattered. It’s daunting to accept that I was still living my life. I hadn’t paused or taken a break. I wouldn’t “get back to it” later.  Surgery, recovery and discomfort was my life.  It’s not lost time; it was worth the effort.  Even though my world was narrow and limited, it produced the opportunity for it to be boundless and unlimited now.

Recovery and healing demand time and toil. Sometimes, the amount of each is out of our control, despite our best actions or desires. At other times, we can impact our healing in profound ways through diligent effort.  Over and over, I painfully learned that lesson and each time became more resilient.

I was forced to abruptly let go of my ideas of what my life was and might have been. I entered a different realm of society — being unwell and being cared for.  I thank my family, especially my spouse and mother, for the years they dedicated to being my caregivers.

trail sign on colorado trail

I faced sadness, frustration, and fear during times of greater struggle, and tried not to dwell there. I shed layers of self and perception. I strived to find opportunity in the obstacles I moved through. Knowing it would pass.  The story I took from it was up to me.

After, my last significant procedure in August 2018, I decided to walk back into my body and the world. For me, nature and wilderness were the perfect place to begin transitioning away from full-time recovery.  For some, including several of my healthcare practitioners the idea sounded a bit mad and much too soon. 

Despite that, I went, and the hardest part was taking my first step. When I did that, I left behind what had been, stepping over a threshold into what is possible. Knowing I might fail; but also knowing even if I failed, I had already won. I was walking a path of healing. And a path of soul.

For this pilgrimage, I chose a high-altitude route that traversed the Continental Divide and Colorado Trail, ultimately trekking about 250 miles. I walked the first 80 miles with a friend, Kelly B. Then, I soloed the rest with support from my spouse Christopher.

It was incredibly challenging, at the same time, it was exactly what I needed. I almost quit many times; but somehow, I found the resolve to tread onward. It felt like an act of devotion honoring where I had been and where I was headed. The experience created a deep confidence and connection while bolstering my physical capacity. I walked into the mountains broken, healing and recovering and I walked out remade, restored and ready.

Even though I viewed myself healed as 2018 came to a close, in 2019, I began the work of becoming healthy and well at a basic level. I also had a new normal to adjust to. I did and still do therapeutic work and self-care. I have follow-up and check-in appointments through 2021. In addition, several therapeutic focused mini procedures through 2020.  Instead of it being my life, I now fit them into my life.  Moving away from this is a process.

I’m immersed in the reality of the intensely hard undertaking of continuing to rebuild my life in all areas. Yet, here I am. Inspired and committed. I am reconnecting with family and friends, discovering how different the world is after 4+ years, renewing my professional path and regaining physical capacity.

Sometimes I find myself impatient and overwhelmed.  I pause. I remind myself that I am guided by vision and not by circumstance.  I remind myself that I can do this, I have the time I need and capacity to begin anew.

Throughout those years of healing, I lived in a world of unwelcome, unknown and uncertain. My journey through may ultimately offer me a more meaningful life than my previous destinations, ideas and ways. Now, I’m deeply grateful.

I used creative work through art and writing as a restorative healing as well as to support my love of creating. As I recovered, writing helped me explore my underworld, sink into it, embrace the flames and rise. I am creating a new story and life path for myself, as my accident and being unwell disrupted my old one.

These poems and stories are my offering. So, join me and as I share this unfolding, unwinding and reforging. These are my words of truth.  Today, I begin again.

In gratitude,
Heather's Signature


Books by Heather Lee Farrell

Book Cover for Walking Into the Wild

Walking into Wild

Walking into Wild is my story of loving the land and walking along the 500-mile Colorado Trail after healing fully functional from almost 4 years of surgery & procedure, healing & recovery due to a traumatic injury… Returning to the world through the wilderness. My book includes original artwork and poetry woven into the story of my trek. 

Coming in 2021


Book Cover for Today I Begin Again

Today, I Begin Again

Fall of 2014 began with ideas of how my vision might unfold, where exploration and travels would take me and how they would bring me home. I had ideas, creative intentions, community to be part of, work to do and adventures to create.

My path would unfold with life providing something entirely different. These poems and writings are my offerings as I move along that path.  I will share with you this unfolding, unwinding and reforging. These are my words of truth.  Poem Art, Prose and Poems.

Coming in 2021!